The Core To My Center

Holla...

Lately, I've been having problems since the last 3 weeks...3 fucking weeks, man!! It keeps coming and coming like ice cubes melting in a glass of hot water. Sometimes, I feel like leaving these shits. God!! If things gets any worse, I might snapped off.

I thought, by shaving my head (10 months or so, I didn't cut my hair), things would ease a bit. But, complications keep on stacking and stacking. 3 weeks ago, I was supposed to submit my project to the director on the next day. And of course, the presentation is ready and all is left to do is burn the project into a CD. All of sudden, 'poof!'; everything is gone; error occured. The best thing is, I didn't save for like 4 or 5 hours after I started to design....Hey, I was rushing and ideas kept pouring like hairs growing on your balls. My 1 month project, and the final version, all gone. But luckily, the crucial components are still safe. That very day, I couldn't even look at my own face, let alone facing the director. I was about to shed tears (seriously, man), then, I gathered all my wits and the hell with everything.

That was 3 weeks ago. The next thing, on the very same week, my main project for this practical is also gone. I really don't wanna talk about that at this time...fucking hate about it. I suffered anxieties, delusions, down syndrome (is this the correct spelling? forgot the spelling..) for 3 days...

The thing is, shits have going since that day until now. My PC need a massive upgrade; my assignments are not finished yet; my cat (unofficial) has to be fed; reports have to be done....the list is endless. I need a vacation. Something to release this pain in my head. I need Ziha. I'm miserable without her. It has only been 1 month of work since the last time me and her been on a date and I already feel like forever. Haiya...I now am a man that couldn't live without woman. Heh...I used to defy that statement. That makes me, a hypocrite too, huh? Life IS not easy....